Mothers Day...

So Mothers day was kinda a blow to me. I was honestly dissapointed. I though maybe I'd get a card, get told a simple "Happy Mothers Day" nope nothing until late at night when i said something about it, then said one day in the week we will have a makeup mothers day hahahaha right you cant make it up :( Maybe I just expect to much out of the small holidays, but most mothers expect something on that day even if its not your mom and its a mother they deserve a happy mothers day. Jeremy went out on the boat with Phil all day. after he left I took a shower and got ready to go to the Valley Of Flowers Parade. Some dumb fair that happens every year. tons of fights and bad things happen there so we dont go. just to the parade. So parade was fun but HOT. after that we walked back up to Chris's and Taylor and the girls played all day. I was only expected to stay a bit but ended up staying there all night. It was nice and at least I was doing something than sitting on the couch by myself. Been super stressed out lately as it is and on edge, so it was nice to get out for the whole day without any drama from others not us. But Im pretty much over it, there is always next yr. I can not wait till the kids are older and in school and make cute mothers day gifts :)

Parade was fun overall. I cant wait till I can put taylor in the town Queen contests. most of the girls runnign for queen were in horse and carriage. The first with a horse had a beutiful carriage. I wish I would got my camera out and took a picture of it. its was all metal and like cinderella. I took pics of some of the rest and when i upload them to my computer ill post a few on here.

Kyler is 2 months

:( WOW... Time is flying by. My baby boy is 2 months old as of yesterday. I to busy to post yesterday. I cant believe I have such an adorable son and a beautiful daughter. if you woulda asked me 4-5 yrs ago I NEVER EVER wanted kids, then I got pregnant with Taylor and I love babies now. Other peoples are ok but get annoying after a while. its true and most know it if they dont want to admit it. I think its cause you raise your kids how you want them to act and others kids dont act how you want them to.

Taylor is into Rapunzel now and we watch "Tangled" about 5 times a day.... or at least it plays in the background that much lol. Luckly I love the movie too :) She is obsessed with dresses now too. she is actually grounded from them today for not playing nice with Faith earlier today when I was watching her. she is upset right now that she cant wear a dress. Faith brought us all over some silicone bracelet's today that her aunt made. They say "Amanda" then when you turn it around more (same outter side) says "always in our hearts". then they got hearts on them too. then even got cute kid sizes that actually fit taylor so that is super cool. Im just glad they are doing alright with the loss of their mom. It hit me hard for her to die and leave her beautiful girls. I feel so horrible for them. I couldnt imagine something happening to me and leaving Taylor and Kyler or even something happening to them. makes me sad to think about.

Ahhhh. Cant wait to get my ErgoBaby carrier either and then take taylor to the park without dragging a stroller and Ill be able to walk a dog too and work with them more cause their training has went to shit. Its so annoying to me. 

Photography Stuff

I need more people to shoot. Debating making a FB page and try and get me some people I can shoot. Shooting the same thing over and over is boring to me LOL. I am going to attempt some fitness photo's from a friend from HS that lives a few streets away. so that should be fun. Got the basement cleaned up for the most part. I set up a mini studio down there with my backdrops and lights. got a few props but not many but over time I will get more. Taylors dad brought my over some fake wood so now I can make a small floor to use with wood to take baby pics with. it  may be bigger but not sure how big, if it is bigger than I can use it for more shoots with adults when that time comes. Im so excited. Im learning more with my camera almost everyday. just need to keep reading more and getting out there and shoot. Gonna start to attempt more outside photos but I suck on manual outside and usually get mad and flip to auto.

Ill learn eventually...

Last April weekend..



Long fun weekend for the most part. I worked at the St. Charles Baby Kids Expo yesterday for Ergo baby in exchange for infant insert and a bad ass Ergo carrier. It so so comfortable and I LOVED it, I can not wait to get mine and wear Kyler. He was in it for over 3 hours and after 10 m ins of being in it was out like a rock. I also got a ton of other freebies there, esp gerber and walmart. I swear Walmart gave me like 50 yummy nutragrain bars lol. My feet hurt like crazy after standing on the concrete so long but before I left I went to the moms zone booth and got a massage and my hair styled (see below). So nice and relaxing. then went home and slept till jeremy got home. He was helping clean up pieces of a friends parents house from the bad tornado that came through last week. they got the clear to start digging through stuff. their house is completely gone :(

Realized some people are two faced and others are users so honestly I dont give a shit about them anymore, Im done with trying and noone putting any effort back. Fuck them! I got my wonderful Fiance and kids to worry about. Speaking of the kids. Kyler is smiling so much lately. I bet a laugh will be coming soon. he can cry and all i gotta do is talk to him and he starts to smile. Hes such a happy baby majority of the time. Bad news I got this weekend was that my mom was in the hospital and but she got released Saturday afternoon and is okay.

Didnt really get the basement cleaned out like I wanted to but will try to work on that this week. I want to make a slightly bigger photography studio down there than craming everything into Kylers room along with all his stuff in there. Im really excited to start doing more photos but just need more models to work with. I'm getting more and more confedient with myself. 

Got to go to the dermatologist tomorrow. I have had a red spot on my nose for over 7 months and it hasnt went away, although in the past week its gotten lighter. I finally remembered to ask my doctor about it and she says it looks like it may be pre-cancerish. So off to go see a skin doctor. hopefully its nothing bad and maybe they can prescribe me something for the acne spot I got in early pregnancy with Kyler from breaking out so bad. We will find out tomorrow. Need to really write a letter to a close friend. I suck at writing letters so I dont know what to say. Hopefully Ill do that and get it in mil tomorrow :) Also tomorrow I got to sign Taylor up for summer school/camp. and hopefully I can get her into their school next year. We got on the waiting list 2 weeks ago.

Osama Bin Laden Dead
Yay he is finally dead. That is great news but also could be very bad news. There is gonna be some bad retaliation coming I'm sure, shit is about to hit the fan. Hopefully not though but he was followed by MANY and you know they are ticked off.
Watching KSDK in the background and the news reporter (dunno his name cause I really dont really watch the news) looks like he has been bawling.

well I guess thats it, till next time.....................